Sunday Meatballs

Earlier this week I made sauce and meatballs - time consuming, but always fun and therapeutic - oh and yummy! I follow the family recipe, ya know the ones with no measurements - it is all in the moment and the feelings. I always feel my mother and her mother's hands in the bowl with mine mashing the meat,eggs, cheese, bread etc. I seriously feel them with me as I roll and cook the balls. The sauce always comes out a little different - it depends on what you pour into it ..frustration, love, stress, it is all in there. The longer it all simmers together - the better the sauce...

So tonight we will eat the lasagna I made with the leftover sauce and meatballs... Also a family recipe that make me thing of my mom and grandmother...it is perfect for this lazy grey Sunday.

Madeleine Diana

Sooooo... I had good intentions of writing more. I had even planned on documenting my pregnancy, but that clearly did not happen mostly because I felt like I might die at any given moment. But it is a new year 2012 and I am adding this to my list of things I want to work on...

Madeleine was born on September 30th - I cannot even believe it has almost been 3 months. There is definitely a fourth "trimester" and I am beginning to emerge from the blur...however even that seems overwhelming - it means I feel the pressure to get things going....get in shape, lose the weight, get the baby in a schedule, teach B to read, help Zachary with his very complicated health issue, etc....but I am trying to relish every single moment of this gorgeous little babe because I know each little moment is fleeting. I mean before I know it she will be on the move. Already I cannot believe she is 3 months old, smiling, laughing and growing like crazy! She is our last and even when I am so tired I want to cry i am really trying to be present in that moment and love it for what it is.

People say they see my mom in her... I do too sometimes, but more than that I feel like I have always known her and I cannot imagine my life without her. As my 7 year old would say, "she is the best gift I ever got"...and she really is!